Thursday, October 20th, 2005
"I’m fulfilled in what I do… I never thought that a lot of money or
fine clothes — the finer things of life — would make you happy. My
concept of happiness is to be filled in a spiritual sense."
Coretta Scott King
I wish I could have the same mindset, to be filled in a spiritual sense, not mere materialistic. 3 years ago I graduated from highschool, thinking that I can enter a University, pick an easy subject to enjoy my U life. I have no target of my future neither the reality that I’m gonna face at that time. The simplest thing in my mind is Digest the food I ate, Absorb chemical with high sugar liquid, Play & Fun. I really miss the time in college, the day I spend in the 603 room. This room has been listed as the noisest room during that time. My roomate were all from the same highschool, of course, happiness, sadness, fight & gossiping against each other is common among us. My routine was to sleep late, woke up late, skipped class, put myself into the cyber digital world. It was when me and my roommate were asked to move our from the hostel, I found an apartment sharing with others and was about to move in, dad urged me to transfer to U. That day I was supposed to accompany my relatives for application, dad supportively hand up my results and all the relevant informations to the officer, an hour later, both of us were accepted by the U. Hard to depict my feelings at the moment, should I just go to the U or should I continue my diploma in the college?
Ultimatly, I went in the U. A brand new day with an entire new environment but old buildings and factories all around us. Expected the course I took is an easy stuff to score, I was far away too optimistic and confidence about myself that I can handle all smooth. It was until than I had a problem in dealing with people, I’m taken too seriously and wanted all perfectly in the work, freak result came by and I lose. I always wanted to win, that’s why when I lose, I fell into depression. Luckily I did not give up myself, although getting a fair result during the end of the year, I have to console myself that I have try my best.
Now, I was in year 2 sem 3, realizing the fact of the world outside after my training program, school days are still the best to endure. Happiness exist when you realized the people you love are happy. I was happy to see people around me still the same, no one get kick out from the training, all young and still full of vigor sitting in the class and around me. It was so far different from what I saw in the newspaper when disaster happens in Indian and poverty in China rural areas, where people found that their friends or classmates or family members or relatives are not around them after sometimes. We were so lucky to be alive, to be with our family members and friends.
Seize the Day… precious the moment…
"The secret of happiness and prosperity in this world, as in the world
to come, lies in thinking of the welfare of others first, and not
taking one’s self too seriously."
J. Kindleberger
